A serious confession

Let me tell you a secret . . . ok, well, not really a secret but it’s definitely a confession . . .

I am my own worst enemy.

Here’s why:

Back in January, you might remember I wrote about my intentions for the coming year and that my one focus was to CREATE. Well, I haven’t really done anything all too useful since then. Nope. I’ve been slacking.

Now, granted – some of you are probably saying “Yeah, but Annie, you’ve gone through some really devastating stuff since then! You deserve a break for once.”

Ok, well – thank you! I appreciate that. And while it may be true, the other half of the truth is that I just didn’t do what I set out to do. Circumstances be damned! I mean, sometimes you really just have to do things ANYWAY. Because the bottom line is, I am accountable and responsible for myself. That means I have to remember life doesn’t just happen to me – it is what I make it. No excuses. My world isn’t controlled by what’s “out there” – it’s controlled by what’s in my heart.

Basically, what it all boils down to is that I was living my life like it was happening TO me instead of BECAUSE of me.

Now I’m pissed off because I know better. I know there is no external source to blame – not my lousy almost ex-husband, not my health issues, not my kids’ wants or needs. It’s all me.

So, I’m sorry. I apologize to you because I let you down too. But most importantly, I apologize to myself and my dreams.

Today I am deciding to just move forward in spite of myself. So  . . . here’s to CREATing my Best Life yet! (And yours too!)