Friday, January 22nd, 2010

A second wind

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You know, I always imagined that by this time of my life (I’m turning 37 today), I would have things figured out. I would have the life I’d dreamed about since I was young. That I would be well-off, educated, happy, successful. But about a year ago, the reality hit me I was not on target to reach all of those goals by this point in my life.

Frankly, it was a B.I.G. let-down. I’m not going to lie and sugar-coat it. I was unhappy about it. I felt depressed. I felt ashamed. I felt like I’d made a mess of my aspirations. And I was hurting inside. I wanted so much more for myself!

But you know what?

I came to the realization a few months ago that those were my own self-imposed limitations! I had set myself up for the feelings of guilt and shame and powerlessness. I realized sometimes things go a different way than we intend and it’s ok. It doesn’t have to be the end of the world. There’s nothing wrong with that.

So, here’s the deal – I’ve given myself permission to move forward from here and to CREATE new dreams. New intentions. New expectations.

And knowing myself better today than I did all those years ago, I’d say I’m much better prepared to actually become the person I long to be.

There are changes coming. I feel like a I have a second wind, a new beginning. I feel a new strength welling up inside me and I am ready to let everything I have to offer come pouring out to share with the world.

Of course, you know what they say about an overnight success?

It’s years in the making . . .

And now, my years in the making are over.

It all begins today.

Be blessed,

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  • Hi Annie! Happy 3 week anniversary of your 37th birthday!

    This is such a great post :) Life isn't about setting and achieving every goal. It's about the feeling of enjoyment you get by being on the road to achievement. When you reach a point of realizing that life doesn't look how you thought it would at any given point, that just means your goals changed. YOU have surely changed (I know I see the me of 10 yrs ago as almost a stranger!) so of course everything else would too.

    All that's left to do is move forward :D

    And hello to Carol :) It's looking like the 3 of us are just setting up our own little network :) I'm delighted to be connected with the both of you.
  • El!!! Good to see you!

    Yes, you are right - it's not about achieving every goal. I agree. And of course, growth is a big thing. Change occurs. It's all good.

    For me, moving forward means going back to some of the goals I'd envisioned and deciding if they are still in alignment with what I want out of life and who I am now. I know a few are and I would like to ultimately revisit those goals and reignite them.

    Moving forward is good stuff! ;-)
  • Happy Belated Birthday! I hope you had some fun amongst all that soul searching? I do know what you mean though. I had a similar experience when I was your age, (i'm 41 now). I began to feel like I was a big fat failure (literally). But thankfully I was saved by a little book called The Secret and that sent me on a journey that I will be on for the rest of my time here. A journey of discovery, accpetance, forgiveness, peace, love, joy and lots and lots of laughter. I hope your passage is equally as spectacular.
  • Hi Carol!

    Thank you! It was a good birthday. Went to lunch with my mom and my cousin, stopped at Barnes & Noble then had dinner with my husband and kids.

    The Secret is darn good, isn't it? Just the tip of the iceberg, really, but it is a good starting point for so many people.
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